For all of my blog readers who have been following my mom’s progression with Parkinson’s, I wanted to post a quick update. Her kidneys are shutting down and she can no longer be fed through the feeding tube because any liquids she gets are accumulating in her lungs. She has a horrible cough that sounds like pneumonia but I’m not sure if it’s actual pneumonia or not. The hospice nurse only comes once a week for a few minutes so my dad and Sister in Law are doing all the hard work.
Mom cannot communicate at all, not even by blinking, so it’s very hard to know what she is feeling or what she needs. She will cry sometimes and we just have to console her the best we can. Other than my son’s overdose, this is the hardest thing I’ve ever experienced and I wouldn’t wish it on anyone, ever. I am however, thankful she’s not suffering from severe pain (that we know of). Her breathing is labored at times and it’s scary. She will stare into my eyes for a very long time and I just smile at her and talk to her like I normally would.
I’ve never lost anyone this way before, and the only person I’ve ever been close to that passed away was my best friend Elisha, which was five years ago and was sudden and unexpected. This is my mom though so this is even harder…
Anyway, I was able to snap a few precious photos that will mean a lot to us in the future and I’ll share a few with you.
This is my dad looking lovingly into my moms eyes and her looking back at him. All I see when I look at this photo is pure and unconditional love. <3
This is a photo of my mom and I holding on to each other. I will never forget holding her hand throughout this. I sure miss her hugs already as she is no longer able to do that.
This is my oldest son Justin, holding on to is Grandma, these two have been inseparable since he was born. He is taking this really hard as you can imagine.
This is my sister in law, Kristenah Driggers, loving on and caring for my mom. She has been a rock for my entire family and spent the majority of her summer here with my nieces and nephew. She has a nursing background and has done everything along with my dad to care for my mom. She has been taking as good of care for my mom as she did for her mom when her mom was passing from cancer. Kristenah has been through the wringer when it comes to losing loved ones, and her heart is HUGE. I cannot thank her enough or say enough good things about her, we love her and she is family.
This last photo is of my friend and neighbor who has been cutting mom’s hair at their house for the last year or so. She has a huge heart and came out one last time to do mom’s hair and paint her fingers and toes. She brought mom some beautiful flowers. Mom was not able to respond but I know she appreciated it very much. Thank you Ashton!
Last I want to share a little story about something that happened yesterday at moms. A few years back, I made mom a scrapbook for Mother’s Day. It had photos from when she was a baby all throughout her childhood and up to her senior graduation. My brother and I held the scrapbook on her lap and flipped through the pages showing it to her. She actually laughed at some of the pictures and I saw joy in her eyes. I stopped scrapbooking a few years ago because my kids are not interested in the scrapbooks right now and I thought it was becoming a waste of time and money. Yesterday I realized, these books may mean something to someone one day and I am going to do my best to finish the unfinished ones and start new ones for my grandson and nieces and nephew. It was such a blessing to share that moment with my mom and brother. I will love those two with all my heart until the end of time.
Finally, I want to thank you for the emails and messages I’ve gotten over the years about my mom’s struggle with this horrific disease. Watching someone you love so dearly lose one ability at a time until they are all gone, is something I wouldn’t wish on anyone. My mom’s mom (my grandmother) also passed from Parkinson’s about 8 years ago and I pray that this is the last we see of this disease in our family.
Thank you all for your support and well wishes. Please continue to pray for an easy and peaceful transition for my mom. Man that sentence was hard to type….
Love to all,