and I still can’t believe she is gone. I keep thinking she’s just at Grandma’s house visiting for a few days. I keep seeing her cute little face and remember how it felt to give her a kiss on the nose, the way she chomped her jaws in the air like an alligator when she wanted to talk to me and how she put her back end towards me when she wanted me to scratch her spot on her back.
I’ll be okay for hours and then it will hit me and the flood gates just open like a breaking dam. I miss her so damned much, I can’t imagine my life without her, it feels so empty and even poor Abby notices. Everyone who comes over notices. There is an empty spot in our family now, that can never be filled. If she were here right now, she’d be in my lap trying to make me feel better, she hated it when I cried and always tried to make me feel better. She would give me “air kisses” I would say “Kisses Ginger” and she would kiss the air right next to my face.
How can you love an animal as much as this? I don’t just love her, I need her. She was truly my best friend in a lot of ways and I don’t want to face the day without her. I don’t want to come home without her to greet me, I don’t want to wake up without her there and I don’t want to go to bed without her laying on my legs. I guess we don’t always get what we want huh?
Here is a poem a sweet lady on youtube sent me, Thanks Kim. 
Rainbow Bridge
Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.
When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together.
There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.
All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.
You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.
Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together….
Author unknown…
I love you Ginger and I miss you so much it hurts like hell. 
Mommy
I know all too well how you feel. I lost my dear Molly (lab/husky on December 15. I cry myself to sleep at night. She always slept with me and leaned against my back. I now sleep with a pillow leaning on my back. I have her ashes and pictures and a lock of her hair and paw print right on my dresser and say “Goodnight and I love you” every night.
So sorry for your pain and heart ache That poem is beautiful and now has me crying
Just wanted to say how sorry I am about you losing your precious family member. We lost our two year old yorkie to a bobcat a few months ago and I still cry nearly every day missing her so much. It is so sad to lose a family pet. It sounds like you have some wonderful memories. Just keep those in you heart and mind and remember the good times you had with her.
Oh, how I am so sorry for your loss. I do understand how you feel about the love of an animal. I have a Jack Russell Terrier who has been fight mast cell disease for six years. I can’t imagine life without him and I don’t want to. He is our baby. Will keep you in my prayers
Marilyn