Wake up disappointed
It’s so late
Everything hurts again
Today isn’t going to be different than the day before
So much I want to do, so much I need to do
Realize; accept none of it will get done
Who will I let down today?
How will my inability to get out of bed affect my family today?
Are my kids going to be mad?
Am I a bad mom?
Am I hurting them or neglecting them?
Angry Now
I want to do so much more
The list runs through my mind
I envision the things I want to be doing right now
For my sons, with my sons
For myself, for others.
Hope, Pray for better day tomorrow
Tomorrow when I awake, there will be no pain
No fatigue
Boundless energy
I see myself smiling, going places, doing things
Making my kids happy
They are proud and grateful that I’m their mom
I will get so much accomplished tomorrow!
Am getting so tired now
Don’t want to go to sleep
Afraid I’ll wake up to THIS again
Disappointed
Cheer up sunshine! Hope everything is ok! let me know if you wanna talk 🙂
Thanks so much for the sweet comment. I’m more cheery now, sometimes the pain just gets to me. I always try to sleep it off and wake up in a better mood and with a better attitude! You are a doll 🙂
i can identify with so much of what you say here, i have fibromyalgia, symptoms so similar to yours, it bleeds me dry some days, i struggle most days to keep it going, keep your chin up!
regards
anne 🙂
I’ve had fibro, CFS and several other issues for nearly 20 years. One thing I learned about 3 years ago has made a HUGE difference in my life. After years of flogging myself for being sick, I was asked how I would treat a friend who had my problems and whether that was how I treated myself. WOW. I finally figured out what they meant by “treat yourself with compassion.” DON’T BEAT YOURSELF UP!!! It isn’t what you do that makes your kids happy, it is who you are and that you love them. I hope you feel better very very soon.
Thanks for the replies, Anne, I sure hope you are feeling well and am sorry that you are suffering from this as well.. book crazzzy, I can’t thank you enough for the advice. I never thought of it that way and it really does help. Unfortunately, my kids are at the age (or just spoiled rotten lol) where they do love me for what I do and not who I am lol Hopefully, someday they wrll turn that around but right now everything revolves around them (in their minds) and they resent me needing help and not doing everything for them like they are used to. Reality check time! Love to you all!
I appreciate what you've written here. I too suffer from CFS/FMS and you hit the nail right on the head! Mind if I post a link to this blog from mine? It's always nice to find others who understand how I feel from day to day.
On This Journey,
Cherry Lynn
Cherry Lynn, Thanks so much. I'm sorry to hear that you are a fellow sufferer, but know you are not alone. I'd be honored to have link to my blog from yours. I have been reading yours and it's amazing! I will post a comment on your blog with more info, but you know how things happen for a reason? Well, you wrote me and I read your blog at an interesting time, all well planned out in advance if you know what I mean 🙂 Take care and happy to meet you my new blog friend 🙂
Kat