It’s been awhile since I posted again…I just can’t find the time between running Kat Scrappiness and regular life stuff going on. Last night I had a dream and I believe it was a visitation type dream from Ginger 🙂 It was SO REAL! I’ve been missing her a lot lately and while Abby is a joy (and a nightmare sometimes), she just can’t replace Ginger. Nobody ever will. She was so special to us. I hope that my best friend Michelle and my MIL Kristenah and my Grandmom are playing with her and keeping her company in heaven 🙂
Things around here could be better, Justin is having a very difficult time and has to go back to court. He may end up doing some jail time because he hasn’t been following through with the requirements of his probation. I’m praying that he doesn’t. That is one thing I do not want my child to experience and I, as a mom, don’t want to see or experience. You never think when you baby is little that he will grow up and be a drug addict or go to jail ya know? Justin is such a tortured soul, I wish there was something more I could do to help him. It breaks my heart a little more on a daily basis to see him struggle. I just keep reminding myself, AT LEAST HE’S CLEAN, AT LEAST HE’S CLEAN. (and alive!). He stopped going to outpatient, AA and quit his GED classes and all he does is stay in his room. He says he feels sick and in pain all the time. I don’t know if it’s from weaning down on the suboxone or if it’s depression or something else. I took him to my family doctor and he is treating him now but Justin doesn’t like him much. (He never likes any doctors). I trust my doctor and believe that if Justin would just do what he is prescribed, things will get better but he’s fighting everything, every step of the way. If you pray, please remember Justin in your prayers. Things are not looking good right now.
On the other hand, my younger son Tyler is doing fantabulous! (yes that’s a word LOL) He has great grades for the first time in his life, a new girlfriend and a better attitude! He is a joy to be around, he is always making jokes and being funny and sarcastic, I love spending time with him. That’s a first in a long time! I don’t know if it’s because I’ve been more strict with him or the new girlfriend or a combination of both but thank God because I couldn’t handle both boys being in trouble at the same time!
My granddad and his wife (my new grandma) are coming to visit in a couple of weeks. I’m so excited I can’t stand it! My mom’s best friend from high school’s daughter is also coming to visit. She is like a cousin to me and I love and adore her to pieces! Well she’s coming too! She lives in Las Vegas so it’s not too far for her but my Granddad and new Grandma live in SC so it’s a bit of a trip for them. Especially at 89 and 90! I am going to soak in and treasure every minute I get with all of them 🙂
I started Weight Watchers and so far things are okay, I’ve lost about 8 pounds in two weeks. It doesn’t feel as good as I thought it would because I wish it were more but everyone keeps telling me that its supposed to be that slow. I have such a long way to go, I guess that’s why it doesn’t feel great yet. Oh well, at least it’s a loss and not a gain right? It took years to get here so I have to keep reminding myself that it may take years to get back to normal again. Looking back, the last 5 years have been complete hell for us and it’s no wonder I got so fat! If not for junk food I think I would have lost my mind by now! The food that I’m eating with WW is actually REALLY good. It’s a little more expensive than junk food but that’s okay, I feel better physically now that I’m eating better so I don’t mind paying extra for it. I’m being very realistic and not strict at all because I know me and I know if I’m really strict I’ll give up. So here’s to losing slowly but steadily!
Mom is not doing so great, I’m really worried about her. My heart breaks when I see her sometimes. She is moving slower and not balancing well and when she tries to turn around I’m scared she is going to fall. She almost fell at my house the other day when she was helping me pack Kat Scrappiness orders (she helps me every day now since I have so many orders to fill and ship), and it scared the daylights out of me. What if she falls at home when I’m not there ya know? She is so young to have to deal with this, life has been hard on her and she doesn’t deserve this. She is one of the best people I’ve ever known and she deserves so much more. I’ll never understand life and its trials….Parkinson’s SUCKS!
Well that’s an update on what’s going on around here. I still haven’t had time to scrapbook or make cards….I miss it so much. Everyday I wake up and say I’m going to make something but by the time I finish work, I’m so beat and in so much pain that I can barely make it to bed. (where I work some more online). All this and I’m still not making any profit! lol I am making money but it all goes back into the store so there is none left over for me….I hope that changes soon! I do have to say it is really fun to have all the new products in my hot little hands and every time I ship a package I feel like I’m sending out RAKS, it’s feels a little like playing Santa Claus LOL If I can’t scrapbook, at least I can be surrounded by scrapbooking goodies right?!
I hope this update finds you all well, thanks for caring enough about us to stay subbed to my blog even though I don’t update it very often anymore. I hope that will change but I can’t make any promises. I’m just trying to get through each day right now. I love you all and hope you have a great day!
We’re here with you, praying for you, and love you!
I just spent hours scrolling through your blog. I send hugs and prayers for the other side of the country (Connecticut). You are amazingly strong and I am sending prayers for you and your family.
Hello! I just found your site after googling for a silhouette problem I had. I have been looking around your
blog and came across this posting. I just wanted to tell you
that my son had an drug addiction problem for 9 long years. In and out of rehab. I prayed for him, sometimes I think I prayed day and night. I prayed driving in the car, taking the trash out. He was on my mind constantly. The dear
Lord answered my prayers. He is 35 years old,married and has his own child. She is three years old now. He is doing just great. He to, stopped going to AA etc.
Besides praying for him, I was always there for him, as I’m sure you are. I encouraged him, we talked all the time. In fact, I learned alot of things I really didn’t want to know, but at least he was talking and we would worked things out. I was like his couselor, very hard on me but not as hard as wondering where he was, what was he doing.
I guess I just want to tell you to hang in, stay close to him, listen to him, be his support and pray. The good Lord does answer prayers and give us miracles. I know for sure I got one, my precious son. The one that he was before those awlful drugs got into his system. I will pray for you.
I just found your website today. I am making an inventory book and saw your great inventory pages to download. Thank you! It seems like it should be so easy to organize, but it is a BIG job!
I have read about your son that was in the hospital and I know what you are going through. I have been there also. My son is still on the drugs, but is trying to get off, it seems our lives are parallel to each other. I hope and pray for him that he stays off of the drugs. It is not only the influence around him, but bordom that will take him down that path. I just don’t understand kids nowadays. Thank you for sharing a spot in your life, it makes me feel better to know that your son has suceeded!